I'm sitting on the bathroom floor of my studio crying right now. I'm working on a college audition video and I'm so horrible. I'm not even practicing en pointe and I'm still fucking it up massively. I've been working so hard but I've made no progress. I just feel so horribly mediocre at everything I do. I see these tumblr dancers that are perfect and just feel like a disgusting slug. I guess my question is if you have any advice.
Don’t make the same mistakes that I did.
Instead of comparing yourself to others, you need to figure out who you are and realize that you’re stuck with yourself whether you like it or not, and you need to make the most of it. I think it’s more beautiful to see a dancer who loves what they’re doing, knows what they need to work on, and realizes that they aren’t perfect and they can improve than to see a robot who is technically perfect and shows fake emotions while they dance.
I recently took a couple of breaks from Tumblr, if anyone has noticed. This was because I was confronted by a friend about my not eating.
I was in a dark space; I chose to go down that path because I thought I was fat and everyone was better than me. And because of that, I developed Anorexia Nervosa and I ended up hurting myself and my friends.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE don’t give up, NEVER give up. Don’t tell yourself you’re not good or you’re ugly or disgusting.
Because coming from someone who knows, coming from someone who developed a dangerous disorder because I was in your position- It’s so not worth it.
Oksana Skorik in La Bayadere
Gisele Bethea, La Esmeralda varation
The corps of Paris Opera Ballet in act 2 of Giselle
Anastasia Kolegova as Odette in Swan Lake
Yulia Stepanova in La Bayadère
Hi there, I've been cruising around the ballet side of tumblr and I just wanted to say how much I admire the discipline and devotion and passion and attitude every single dancer has. Never ever give up because the world needs more people who have the ethic that ballet dancers do. You're lovely and you're going to do great at everything you do ! Also, I love your blog xx keep your chin up
:) thank you!
Olga Smirnova in class at Bolshoi
Feeling so thankful and privileged after performing my first Golden Idol in La Bayadere with Estonian National Ballet. #happy
im so proud of you bae ❤️
YAAAAS ZACH YAAAAAAAAAS